Control

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Control

Many of us have been trying to keep the whole world in orbit with sheer and forceful application of mental energy.

What happens if we let go, if we stop trying to keep the world orbiting and just let it whirl? It’ll keep right on whirling. It’ll stay right on track with no help from us. And we’ll be free and relaxed enough to enjoy our place on it. 
Control is an illusion, especially the kind of control we’ve been trying to exert. In fact, controlling gives other people, events, and diseases, such as alcoholism, control over us. Whatever we try to control does have control over us and our life. 
I have given this control to many things and people in my life. I have never gotten the results I wanted from controlling or trying to control people. What I received for my efforts is an unmanageable life, whether that unmanageability was inside me or in external events. 
In recovery, we make a trade off. We trade a life that we have tried to control, and we receive in return something better – a life that is manageable. 
Today, I will exchange a controlled life for one that is manageable. 

Freedom from Compulsive Disorders

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(God) Thank you for keeping me straight yesterday. Please help me stay straight today. – paraphrased from ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS 

When I first began my recovery from codependency, I was furious about having to begin another recovery program. Seven years earlier, I had begun recovery from chemical dependency. It didn’t seem fair that one person should have to address two major issues in one lifetime. 

I’ve gotten over my anger. I’ve learned that my recoveries aren’t isolated from one another. Many of us recovering from codependency and adult children issues are also recovering from addictions: alcoholism, other drug dependency, gambling, food, work, or sex addiction. Some of us are trying to stay free of other compulsive disorders – ranging from care taking to compulsively feeling miserable, guilty, or ashamed. 

An important part of codependency recovery is staying clean and free of our compulsive or addictive behaviors. Recovery is one big room we’ve entered called healthy living. 

We can wave the white flag or surrender to all our addictions. We can safely turn to a Power greater than ourselves to relieve us of our compulsive behavior. We know that now. Once we begin actively working a program of recovery, God will relieve us of our addictions. Ask God each morning to help us stay free of our addictions and compulsions. Thank God for helping us the day before. 

Today, God, help me pay attention to all my recovery issues. Help me know that before I can work on the finer points of my recovery, such as my relationships, I must be free of addictive behaviors. 

Our Higher Power

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For the next twenty-four hours…

In recovery, we live life one day at a time, an idea requiring an enormous amount of faith. We refuse to look back – unless healing from the past is part of today’s work. We look ahead only to make plans. We focus on this day’s activity, living it to the best of our ability. If we do that long enough, we’ll have enough connected days of healthy living to make something valuable of our life. 

…I pray for knowledge of Your will for me only,…

We surrender to God’s will. We stop trying to control, and we settle for a life that is manageable. We trust our Higher Power’s will for us – that it’s good, generous, and with direction. 

We’re learning, through trial and error, to separate our will from God’s will. We’re learning that God’s will is not offensive. We’ve learned that sometimes there’s a difference between what others want us to do and God’s will. We’re also learning that God did not intend for us to be codependent, to be martyrs, to control or caretake. We’re learning to trust ourselves. 

…and the power to carry that through.

Some of recovery is accepting powerlessness. An important part of recovery is claiming the power to take care of ourselves. 

Sometimes, we need to do things that are frightening or painful. Sometimes, we need to step out, step back, or step forward. We need to call on the help of a Power greater than ourselves to do that.

We will never be called upon to do anything that we won’t be empowered to do. 

Today, I can call upon an energizing Power Source to help me. That Power is God. I will ask for what I need

Recovery Prayer

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This prayer is based on a section of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous:

(God) Thank you for keeping me straight yesterday. Please help me stay straight today. 

(God) For the next twenty-four hours, I pray for knowledge of Your will for me only, and the power to carry that through. 

(God) Please free my thinking of self-will, self-seeking, dishonesty, and wrong motives. 

(God) Send me the right thought, word, or action. Show me what my next step should be. In times of doubt and indecision, please send Your inspiration and guidance. 

(God) I ask that You might help me work through all my problems, to Your glory and honor. 

This prayer is a recovery prayer. It can take us through any situation. In the days ahead, we’ll explore the ideas in it. If we pray this prayer, we can trust it has been answered with a yes. 

Today, I will trust that God will do for me what I cannot do for myself. I will do my part-working the Twelve Steps and letting God do the rest. May 1


Balance

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The goal is balance. 

We need balance between work and play. We need balance between giving and receiving. We need balance in thought and feelings. We need balance in caring for our physical health and our spiritual health. 

A balanced life has harmony between a professional life and a personal life. There may be times where we need to climb mountains at work. There may be times where we put extra energy into our relationships. But the overall picture needs to balance. 

Just as a balance nutritional diet takes into account the realm of our nutritional needs to stay healthy, a balanced life takes into account all out needs: our need for friends, work, love, family, play, private time, recovery time, and spiritual time – time with God. If we get out of balance, our inner voice will tell us.we need to listen. 

Today I will examine my life to see if the scales have swung too far in any area, or not far enough in some. I will work toward achieving balance. April 30

The Language of Letting Go 

Daily Meditations and Codependency

MELODY BEATTIE